You’ve likely found this site because you’re in what feels like an insurmountable amount of pain, emotionally, physically, or spiritually.
Possibly you’ve skid into a crossroad, unsure of how to proceed, feeling unfulfilled, stuck or lost. Confused, even.
Maybe you’re experiencing some sort of inner rumbling in your life, that you can’t explain. There’s this bottomless hole, inextinguishable thirst, insatiable hunger…
For… something… New?
I may not know exactly what you’re going through right now, but I can imagine.
I help lady geniuses, leaders and high-achievers, burned out, broken, and over burdened from striving, performing and pretending, travel well on their journey towards becoming Wellthy Fit + Free™.
All praises belong to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. For he is the Father of tender mercy and the God of endless comfort. He always comes alongside us to comfort us in every suffering so that we can come alongside those who are in any painful trial. We can bring them this same comfort that God has poured out upon us. - II Corinthians 1:3-4 The Passion Translation
THE NOW BUT NOT YET
You're just beyond the wilderness stage. You’re no longer who you used to be (forever changed by what you’ve been through), yet feeling like you’re not prepared for who God’s calling you to be.
You’re not ready. YET.
Are you wondering who you are and what to do next?
Are you your failures, sadness, anxiousness, unforgiveness, bitterness?
Are you so damaged by the things you’ve done, or that have been done to you that you’re unworthy of love, joy, abundance, success? Freedom?
Will you forever be defined by your past?
Are you too old? Not enough? Too late? Too much?
How will people respond to the new… the REAL you?
WHO ARE YOU ANYWAY?
Just as you're doing right now, I wrestled with all of those questions after the cozy shell of a life I'd manufactured was crushed under the weight of "real life".
WHO AM I?
Who are you when, for so long you've allowed yourself to be defined by what you do, where you go, who you know, how much you make, where you live, what you drive…
How creative you are, how smart, how attractive, how great of a mom, wife, friend, sister, aunt… how strong, resilient, upright… _______________ (insert your thing) you are. Then, suddenly for whatever reasons you’re suddenly none of those things?
Are you the divorce, broken relationships? Is friendless, manless, childless, jobless your badge?
Do you succumb to the new labels slapped on you by your trials? Anxiety, depression, angry woman, weak woman, failure? Should you layer them upon the lies of your former years? The ones you've been wearing as truth?
Okay, But still... WHO ARE YOU?
While imprisoned by the Nazis, Deitrich Bonhoeffer, a German pastor wrote a poem entitled, “Who Am I?” in which he writes:
MAN SEES THE OUTWARD...
Everyone else thought of Bonhoeffer as this strong, impenetrable tower of faith and strength, in spite of his circumstances.
So who was he? Was he who he felt on the inside? Or, what others imagined him to be?
He also wondered the same.
I’ve never related to a written work (outside of the Bible) so deeply as I have this poem. This very last line stole my breath away. The one thing despite what he may have been feeling, or what others thought, what Bonhoeffer knew for sure was that:
"Whoever I Am, Thou Knowest, O God, I Am Thine!"
He knew that he was a son. Bonhoeffer's identity was rooted in Christ. Isn't that the most beautiful, and luxurious way to be? We're none of the things that others may think or say we are.
We're not our successes. Nor, are we our failures. Past, present, or future. We're God's. Just like Dietrich Bonhoeffer, no matter what we’ve been through, what we may still be going through we’re His. We’re daughters of the One true god. We’re heiresses to a promise, HOPE and future.
Hey, sister! Where is your hope anchored today?
WHY WE EXIST
Hey, Daughter! was born in the fire. Deep in the wilderness. In the underbelly of the darkest pit. But, God! I was comforted there, refined, strengthened and set apart... for the journey. It's also, where I discovered my true design, my identity as a daughter and the depth of God's love for me and you.
Yes, He did that, but not for me. He comforted me so that I'd be a comforter, helped me so that I'd be a helper, equipped me to be an equipper. He nailed my shame to the cross, so that I'd become a shame slayer. Hallelujah!
He’s ready to do a new thing in you today. He can right here in the middle of your wilderness comfort you with His presence, provide for you, fulfill His purpose in you.
Your story is not one of striving and suffering. Losing or lacking. Abuse or abandonment. Disappointment or distrust. It’s a redeeming story of God.
I believe you're here, not by coincidence or chance. You're here because of His sovereignty and unending pursuit of you. He sees your desire for change. You've tried everything, else. You may have even managed to get all shiny and new-ish on the outside. However, on the inside you're still a mess, anticipating the next shoe drop. Am I right? Come to the well, sister. Come where there's living water. Where you'll never thirst again (John 4:14).
Won't you choose grace over grinding , awe over angst, love over fear today? His yoke is easy and His burden is light (Mathew 11:30). You will? That's awesome. Contact me, let's chat!